Resigned
I drafted my resignation letter today... and spoke to my manager about it. At that time, I felt it was right - right for me and right for the team. I resigned because I feel ashamed of how I have been faring at work. I have not been that inspiring leader to my teammates. The one I hoped for when I was in college. I have not been able to help out in the CI Working Group the way I originally planned. And there are a hundred emails and I've never even seen who they are from. It's chaotic. And I am not good with chaos. I am at my low lows again. I have kept quiet these past days, hoping no one will notice. Although I have been thinking if keeping mum about how I feel would even help suppress the unhealthy thoughts in my head. It doesn't. It never did for years. I just learn that later it will pass. I will be back. Loud, perky. Until the next wave. My manager knew about my mental health just today. It's hard for me to explain to people about my condition because I never wan...